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27 December 2010 @ 09:06 am
For your sake I hope heaven and hell are really there, but I wouldn't hold my breath.  
I feel, sometimes, that I am doomed to fade into obscurity, and that frightens me. I'm not so big on attention and thus am relegated to the role as the Best Friend, the sidekick, the mother figure, the bit on the side. Honestly I don't mind so much but I wonder that when I die anyone will remember me, and what for? If I were prettier, smarter, more charming, less crazy then perhaps I would be.. more. Better. It's pointless to wish that I could change what already is, or who I am.



Merry christmas, I guess.
 
 
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Lauradelphaeus on December 26th, 2010 10:21 pm (UTC)
JessJess I love you. It even now says it on your bedding. Check the quilt border! You are one of those steady people in my life who have helped me in this year of anxiety and dealing with it.
Dominitusdominitus on December 27th, 2010 01:31 am (UTC)
The other day I was feeling a bit bummed because I don't feel like I've made enough of a mark on the world. The trick is not to let that depress you, rather help it to motivate you. If you haven't made your mark yet, that leaves you with a lot of potential. How do you want to be known? Figure that out and dive headlong in to making it happen. All it takes is a decision and some motivation. You can do it. :)
Australian Joeaustralian_joe on December 27th, 2010 04:26 am (UTC)
There's something I say when I don't seem to have any good words, but I am not OK with just not saying anything at all:

I read all this. I read everything you post here that is filtered to include me. You're in my tightest filter of "do not miss anything these people post", even.

I don't know you at all well but your self-image as reported here differs markedly from the mental image I have of you.
jimmy triumphantjimmyjack on December 27th, 2010 05:36 am (UTC)
+1

:)
cheshire_bittencheshire_bitten on December 27th, 2010 07:46 am (UTC)
*hugs*
Elisaurus_Rexbloodied_angel7 on December 27th, 2010 02:42 pm (UTC)
i love you. always. unconditionally. and i will never forget me because you have been part of some of the best and worst times in my life. <3
you are amazing and beautiful in every way, don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise...and that includes your brain :)
**HUGS AND SUPER LOVE**
Caz: Meerkatcazzicles on December 28th, 2010 03:00 am (UTC)
I wish I got to see you more often. You're amazing.
ikona_rakashaikona_rakasha on December 28th, 2010 10:28 am (UTC)
I think you are amazing, have the sweetest smile, the best hair and you always smell like sugar so you are extra sweet. My brain needs to glitterbomb yours :D